Interrupted Mind.

I honestly have the sort of brain that does not shut up. The best description I have of it is that my mind in all its beauty and intrigue is ‘Chaotically Cluttered’. And truly it's only saving grace is when something, someone, anything will take the time to interrupt the continuous spiral it places itself on. And the funny thing is people think of me as calm, but it's really that my brain so quickly fast tracks my over thought that it just wants plugs out of it.

Seemingly calm and yet definitely over thinking. It's like one thinks of all the problems, circumstances and situations in which this in all probability will not, cannot, is not going to work out, right? And for this reason one is filled with fear, anxiety and all those horrible emotions one does not liken toward being any sort or kind of calm. But sometimes. Sometimes in trying to come to terms with all these probabilities gets one to a state of not calmness but rather apathy.

And that's why in all this, in all these spiraling and rather detrimental thinking patterns there is the vital role of interruption. This breaking. This diversion. This all alerts coming to focus- interruption.

My first ever spoken word piece was about a moment that embodies for me a most vital and integral interruption to my very personhood. This interruption was one I tried to argue against, tried to discount, want with everything I am at times to question the crap out of and still to this day am unable to shake.

“You are Mine.”

So says God, the Creator of the entire Universe, the one who parcels out all of heaven and earth. The one who births stars and fathomed oceans. The one who carves out mountain ranges and the cells which make up my very being. HE. He claims me as His own.

The one who is enthroned above all the living and the dead, with every authority one could ever possess. The One who died and rose again. Who was tortured and buried and then having conquered sin, guilt and death came back to life from the grave. HE. He calls me His own.

What more pivotal interruption could there be! He calls us. He calls us, mere humans, into His glorious light, eternal forgiveness and ever loving arms to be His own. YOU, yes, YOU! Get to be His beloved. The apple of His eye, redeemed and restored simply by trusting in the name of Jesus.

And honestly I’m unfazed by whether you have the most chaotically cluttered mind, whether you’ve known calmness or apathy or whether you truly think you have this life and existence thing figured out but YOU… you in all your details, complexities, individuality, brokenness, sinful messed up reality ARE FULLY LOVED by the One who is far more magnificent than you could ever imagine!!

And if this, this declaration of Him saying no matter what, He wants you as His own. If this, whether you did or did not know that until now, does not interrupt the very fabric of your heart, mind and soul then I don't even know. Because this God, this saviour that is Jesus changes EVERYTHING for me.

I truly pray, that if nothing else, you will be completely confronted and totally interrupted by this God and His all encompassing love that He wants to lavish upon you. For in this is true peace.

Yours in beautiful interruption,

Jeanique //iridescent_poet//